I've learned as of late to not be too hard on myself and to not feel sorry for people who have themselves to blame for their problems. I've learned to not feel bad anymore about being honest and saying what I am thinking out loud. And because of that, some people don't understand why I don't have more sympathy or why I don't hold my tongue. The only answer I have to that is that sometimes, it's just not worth it to worry about other people. It's a bit of a risk to speak honestly in a world where many, many, many people lie to you. You never know how people are going to react to you speaking your mind, especially if you are a women. You could come across as intimidating, rude, or just a bitch even if you have no intention of hurting someone's feelings. The funny thing is that I have found that because I don't worry about stupid stuff, I have much more empathy for people who really need it.

It's just way too tiring for me to censor myself anymore. I need to live my life for me and go after what I want.

EDIT: I'm also tired of thinking about doing things instead of doing them, so if anyone wants to go crazy and feel alive, give me a call.